Now that I left what to do ?

Tonight marks night one of a life time of healing! Who ever said that leaving an abusive relationship is easy L I E D ! Let me say this my mind over today has been maybe he will change , maybe I should call him tonight , F him he made me hurt the last two years , I wonder how my dog is doing , I wonder if he misses me and so on .... I really have felt so free today! I’ve felt sad. I’ve been mad. I’ve had all the emotions possible. But what I do know is my family doesn’t deserve to see me hurt. My siblings look up to me as the oldest. Yes I know people go through things in relationships but abuse (physical, mental or emotional) IS NOT ok!

So from today forward I’m working on loving me , getting back in church, starting school and hopefully getting a car soon! No it’s not ideal that I’m back home with my mom but it beats being dead or abused in any way shape or form.

To anyone in this situation... ONE DAY AT A TIME! Tomorrow is a new day and honestly today has been hard as hell but so completely WORTH IT!