dear him

before i begin i want to say i’m sorry. i’m gonna seem like a total slut after you read all of this. I faintly remember our relationship in middle school, and i remember having a slight crush on you back then. but when i met you again at perkins, and you asked for my snapchat, i felt something i haven’t felt in a long time.

i have a boyfriend, and he’s made me very emotionally exhausted, but when you talk to me or send me streaks i feel happy again. i feel happy. we don’t talk alllll the time but when we do, it feels great, like i can actually connect with you.

i’ve tried to leave my boyfriend twice, with your help, but he’s pulled me back to him. but i know we have something. something beautiful that i won’t find with anyone else.

i learned today that you’ve been talking with this girl. you both made out with each other at a park that i’m always at. i’m not sure if i should give up on us. i know i have a boyfriend, and i seem like a slug and a cheater, but i need you to understand something.

you’re amazing. i don’t know what i would do without you. i think you’re great, and i would love to spend time with you. we don’t go to the same school, so it’s hard. i don’t want us to die away. please stay in my life forever... no matter what the fuck happens.

- someone (: