All I want....

All I want in life is to be beautiful. I want people to see me in my everyday look and think “wow, she is pretty”. I want my husband to want me sexually. I want my mom and family to tell me I am pretty even though I don’t have makeup on. They are always telling me I am so much prettier with makeup and that I should wear at least mascara everyday. I want my husband to see my sexual advances as more of a mutual liking/benefit instead of it’s just for me. He always says I don’t deserve to play with his penis or don’t deserve sexual favors unless I have done something for him. So he doesn’t enjoy anything sexual from me and it’s strictly a one sided enjoyment/benefit. I want to feel wanted. I want to feel excepted. I’m sick of random strangers laughing and pointing at me and making rude comments about my weight and looks...

What I look like almost everyday: