Venting

I need to vent and I don’t like telling people my business so I figured I can post here because I don’t know any of you personally and I can post anonymously....

My boyfriend and I’s lease is up in February. My plan was to move back to my parents for a year and save money rather than paying rent so I can get a decent amount of money for a down payment on a house. Our relationship was getting rocky before the birth of our children so I figured why not move back to my parents and save anyways, our relationship is falling apart. Right? But then once the babies were born, we actually got along well, he was real hands on with the babies. It was almost as if he changed his whole attitude towards me and his children. So then all of a sudden after waiting for 6 years, he ended up getting picked for an apartment that goes based off of your income, so for obvious reasons my name cant be on this lease. I asked him before we moved here if he was sure he wanted me to come here with him and I mean like actually wanted me here because he wants to be with me, not because he feels like it’s the right thing to do. I also mentioned that I don’t want to move in and that weeks later he has a change of heart and is going to kick me out because my name isn’t on the lease so I have no say anyways. He said yes, and the doors always open for me, he would never tell me to leave. Soooo, of course I moved in, wanting my family to work and because I have strong feelings for him. (We were together before on & off for 3 years, kept in touch and after being apart for 2 years, got back together and have been together currently for 2 years) Today, we got into a disagreement because he left at 1pm to run an errand, I asked him if he was coming here after because yesterday we discussed doing laundry today and going back to the other apartment to clean it up so we can try to get the management to find tenants for January and February so we can get our money back. Today is his only day off, so I had planned my day around that to get everything done. He never came back from his errand, I callee him at 3:15 and asked where he was because I wanted to get a move on things. He told me he was at his aunts and I asked him why did he tell me he was going to come home after. He said he just told me what I wanted to hear so I wouldn’t bitch. Of course I’m going to bitch now because I planned my whole day around what we discussed yesterday and with two newborns i can’t do it all alone. So after our disagreement he told me he doesn’t think it’s going to work out and he wants me to leave.

Sorry for posting such a long little venting session but I’m just annoyed. It’s all because lack of communication. Where we live, his friends and family are literally all 5 minutes away. My family and friends are about 25 mins but it makes a world of a distance when you have 2 babies to feed change and get them and yourself ready before you can even go anywhere. I am going to leave him be and not speak to him for a day so he can cool down and then I’ll have a conversation about it with him, but I literally called him out prior to moving in that he was going to kick me out and now here it is happening. I doubt he’s really going to make us leave but it’s just the principle of him having that power.