I can’t ask for help

I don’t know if I’m looking for advice or if this sounds like stuff I actually need help for or if I’m just being dramatic.

I feel so trapped, it’s been a year since I’ve had my baby & I can’t lose the weight, I’m not working, I feel like I can never get out of the house, and when I do I feel so tired. I feel like I’m always angry or upset and stressed or anxious about something. I don’t sleep right, I feel like I’m not doing enough as a mother to give my daughter the best life, and I feel like a crappy girlfriend. I cant keep up with cleaning and even the smallest things feel so overwhelming. My boyfriend is constantly telling me I need to be in better moods, or I need to calm down, I get to worked up and that’s why I never feel good because I’m so stressed .

Every time I’ve been to the doctors for check ups and they ask about anxiety or depression I just lie. I cant seem to ask for help, and I can’t ask for people to ask for help for me because then I just feel childish and the doctors will think I’m childish. I feel like I can’t tell my boyfriend bc he makes it seem like I wanna be stressed & in bad moods& there isn’t anything wrong& I don’t want anyone to think I can’t care for our baby.