Are there guys out there

Who don't mind if girls are bigger? I'm trying to lose weight but I have a couple hormonal problems that makes it difficult and my ex said he thought I was beautiful but he'd constantly like other thing and sexy girls' photos, dozens of them many of whom he knew and a lot of them in bikinis or wearing sexy tight dresses which is fine cause guys do stuff like that all the time I was told but it just made me feel like how I looked wasn't enough for him. I just dunno because I'm not a certain size if guys would ever be attracted to me🤷🏻‍♀️