I am 8 months postpartum and I definitely believe that I have PPD. I always has anxiety and anger issues since I was a child but never was taken to the Dr. for them. After having my baby these symptoms have just escalated and got worse. I am already planning on calling my OB regarding these and hoping I can get the proper help. I just want to talk to someone and know that I am not alone. Seeing that everyone I try talking to about it either judges me for it, doesn’t understand how I feel, or simply just dismisses it. I haven’t slept in weeks, not all of it is my daughter. But my daughter doesn’t help. The girl lately has been waking up about 6 times all before 12:00 am and it has been stressing me to no end. It sets off this rage that I just can’t control. I love my daughter very much and majority of the time I’m with her it’s great! But as soon as it’s time for a nap or bed time I start getting fearful and an anxiety because she gives me such a hard time with sleep. It’s so bad that at night when she isn’t crying i literally am hearing things that don’t exist. I have rage that causes me to scream and yell and throw things. I know better to not hurt my child! I put her in her crib and literally let out my frustrations else where. But my husband or mother are NOT the for me instead they judge me and tell me to get over it and make me feel bad for how I feel. For the past 8 months my husband has instilled in my brain that if I go to talk to someone about this that I’m gonna end up getting my daughter taken away from me so I never acted on this sooner when I know I should have. I’m just tired of feeling depressed, stressed, angry and hopeless and alone. Please be kind I am giving these posts one more chance! As I have been around a few people who have been so rude to me on here. I am just looking for someone to talk to who has gone through this or is understanding. :(