Mixed emotions 😢😢💔💔💔

So yesterday i was diagnosed with epotic pregnancy . they had ultrasound done nothing in the uterus but when they did the vagial ultrasound they found a mass next to the ovaries and they said its the baby didnt made it to the uterus and implanted in my tube and ended up in ER with pain at 11:50 pm i got the chemotherapy shot to kill the living cell inside of me before it damage my tubes and after i got the shot my heart just broke having to do this for my health.