Terrified I'll die in childbirth. Anyone else?

I'm in my second trimester and have a 5 year old girl. Labor with her was long and difficult and I ended up with an emergency csection. 3 years later I was a gestational surrogate and my OB said I was a good candidate for VBAC but I was just too afraid something would go wrong and I'd die so I asked for a csection. I remember just crying over and over that I would never be pregnant again if I could make it through this to stay with my little girl. Then I got baby fever and realized that was crazy anxiety and I shouldn't have been so afraid. Well here I am with the same fear taking over again. I just need to know if other people had this fear and ended up alive after birth. Does anyone get it each time? I plan on discussing this with my doctor, who said I am a candidate for vbac and I do not want to get a csection because I let this fear control me again. But I am so terrified to leave my girl without me. I can't leave her. Thanks to anyone who takes the time to read and reply!