Worried of another stillbirth.. help!

So just a little background..

When I was 17 I got pregnant with my first baby. I was over the moon... 20 weeks went by and I found out I was having a little girl! I couldn’t of wished for anything more. I was so delighted with the news.

Then week 25 came and I ended up going into premature labour, out of now where I was in hospital delivering my little baby. During delivery the cord dropped first meaning she suffocated and died before they could delivery her. They tried to save her life for half an hour but nothing worked.

The feelings I was feeling was like no other feelings Iv experienced. Utter devastation and confusion just hit me like a tone of bricks. I cried and cried for months.

10 years on and I still feel that devastation and confusion. Why did it happen, why did it happen to me? What caused it? Was it my fault?

During those 10 years I went on to have two beautiful healthy boys. Now in school :)

My youngest is 6. And I am now pregnant again... this time with a little girl.

I cried so much when I was told she was a girl, I couldn’t believe it!! My scan was done at 17 weeks.

I am now 19 weeks and having complete fear of it all happening again to me because she’s a little girl. I don’t know why my mind is thinking like this but I even dream of going through the same situation of having a stillbirth. The other night, I ended up screaming in my sleep and woke my husband up who was in complete shock to what was going on. I cry during the day thinking something as to go wrong at some point.

During this pregnancy I have had absolutely no complications, no bleeding, nothing. Everything as gone so smoothly up to now.. something must go wrong right?

I am completely terrified of loosing my little one. How can I stop these thoughts.

My dreams seem to be constant too of the same situation over and over again.

How can I stop all this and enjoy the rest of my pregnancy??

Told my midwife I was feeling like this and they told me I’ll be induced again at 37 weeks like my boys were due to having my little girl so early and to reassure me. But I’m still having all these thoughts.

Someone please help.