So I met this guy in November of 2017 he already had a kid from a previous relationship. We ended up dating, he was/is manipulative, controlling, and verbally abusive, physically abusive to his kiddo. My family and I had witnessed him kick his kid off of a chair, smack him very hard on the head, call him names, yank him by the arm, and would ignore him for video games. I would be the one to feed and change him. We would always hear him wanting to get his dads attention and him being ignored.

I had wanted out of the relationship since the end of December 2017 but he would always guilt me into staying and would make me feel like everything wrong was my fault. I ended up finding out I was pregnant in July of 2018 and didn’t want to tell him but he lived with me and I knew I would be showing soon. We ended up breaking up shortly after I found out, but he would always make me feel bad for not going to see him, I would tell him about appointments and he would refuse to go but then come back and yell at me saying I never told him. He would constantly try to rope me back into the relationship, then get mad when I would refuse.

Skip forward to February when I had my beautiful little girl, I went into labor and didn’t allow him to come and I left him off of the birth certificate. I decided to give him one chance and see how he was with her in the safety of the hospital. He came the next day to meet her and was incredibly rough with her. He would rip her leg up when changing her and would pick her up fairly aggressively and my mom and I had said something a couple times about it. Later that day the nurse and my mom were getting me out of bed to walk (I had a fairly rough labor and this was the first time I was able to get out of bed) so he went behind a curtain and was holding her. She didn’t/doesn’t really like him so every time he had her while there she would scream and cry until she was given back to my mom and I after telling her to shut up multiple times. While he was behind the curtain we heard her crying and him telling her to shut up shortly after we heard her screaming even more at which point my mom went and got her. They made him leave and right after I looked over her and noticed a fairly deep cut on her arm and a bruised handprint on her back.

So I decided that he wouldn’t be in any part of her life if I could help it. He started bugging me about seeing her and slowly got more aggressive about it saying ‘ you do understand I know where you live right?’ & ‘if you don’t respond I’m going to show up on your porch and won’t leave until I get to see her’ I had notified the police by this point along with cps(they now have a case open) I’m starting to feel extremely unsafe in my home and afraid he’s going to hurt us, he talks about killing himself all the time and I honestly don’t think he’d have a problem taking us out with him. I went and tried to get a protection order for us because he’s gotten increasingly aggressive and been denied twice.

I’m not quite sure what to do at this point. But I don’t feel safe & I’m worried that if he ends up getting any visitation or custody I won’t see her again... what else can I do?