My Soulmate, My Angel

I’ve not been on this app very long, maybe 2 months. My husband and I had been TTC for about 2 years, so I thought tracking things might help. We were so excited to have children. He wanted a little boy, of course. He was big on hunting and fishing. I would have been happy either way. But on March 1, 2019 my whole world came crashing down. I lost my husband. My best friend. My soulmate. He was called home to be with the Lord at age 27. It has now been 2 weeks and 3 days since I lost him and it still feels so unreal. I have no idea how I’m supposed to cope with this. We had been together for 3 years and 5 months, but had only been married for 2 and a half months. We didn’t even get to go on our honeymoon. I didn’t have time to settle in as a wife, now I have to settle as a widow. When we got married, I used the ring he had given me as a sort of “promise ring” because we couldn’t afford a wedding set for me, however he bought me a wedding set 2 weeks before he passed. I had to have it resized and it didn’t get back to me until after I lost him. But now I wear my rings proudly, as I wear his on a necklace. My heart is shattered. I feel as if I’m falling apart little by little. I don’t really have anyone to talk to, which is why I’ve made this post. Thanks for letting me share my story.