World Down syndrome day

It was 1:33am and I just gave birth. Baby was placed on my chest. We cuddled for about an hour then our little girl was taken over to the lights and she was measured and weighed. I was relieved it was all over. What's her name the nursed asked. Her dad and I looked at each other and said we didn't know yet. I get her back and they take us down to our room. We get settled in and get to bed. Morning was soon and our son would be here to visit. Around 7 we wake and I'm holding this little perfect baby and I notice something looks a little different almost like she might have Down syndrome. But the thought leaves my mind just as fast as it entered. I call my grandma and tell her the good news. The pediatrician on call comes in and wheels her to the front of my bed my hubby is sitting on the couch. She starts looking her over listening to her perfect little heart. She lays her down and I'll never forget these words "I would like to talk about what I found, your daughter has markers of Down syndrome" . I instantly had a wave of heat climb up my body and I couldn't believe what I was hearing. The nurse said she wanted to take her so we could have a few minutes. I lost it I couldn't breath how could this me happening to ME? My hubby rushed to my said. He was my rock he held me together. We quickly went and got our daughter back. They suggested a blood test to confirm. This shook me to the core. I lost all emotions, I felt like I was holding someone else's baby I lost my bond. We couldn't wait for our son to get there. We just wanted to hold something familiar. When he walked in and seen her he was ecstatic and my hubby and I lost it. We didn't know what to name her. Emotions were all over the place. We asked our son what her name was he said Allison Carter. So that's what went on the birth certificate. The next 5 weeks were lots of tears, fears and anger. The bond started to creep back. We were blessed with this perfectly healthy baby who just needed to be loved.

We are now 8 months into this journey. God put us on this path for a reason. It took me 7 months to stop being angry that he did this to my daughter. I believe he did this to spare me from a greater pain and I trust his decision. We are beyond excited to watch Alli grow up and concur the world. She will always have her 3 biggest fans by her side cheering her on.

Her hair was wild today.

They are obsessed with each other.

I'm so blessed with the most PERFECT babies. My heart is so full of love and joy for these 2.