Seeing a fertility doctor

I feel like there's a lot of judgement around having abortions, and I had one when I was 17. It's been more than 10 years since and my husband and I have been TTC for a couple of years.

I always feel so ashamed admitted I had one. The last doctor I saw (when we thought we were having an ecoptic) pulled such a face when we mentioned it (I was with my husband back then, it happened when I was a teen and we'd only been dating for less than a year).

The doctor before that was OK, asked if it was because of my age but now I have to go and see ANOTHER doctor. I get such anxiety about it and feel like I'm being judged.