Still crying about it

My (ex) boyfriend (because I’m still not used to saying that) broke up with me 2 weeks ago. And I’m still not used to it. I loved him so much. I lost my virginity to him. (Which is a big deal I’m a church girl and he’s a pastors son) he meant so much to me.

I’m still sad about it. I don’t understand what went wrong but I miss him. I can’t even look at his face because every time I do it reminds me of when I was happy and now I’m always sad.

I grew up with nobody caring about me and then I got him. Now I have to get used to no one caring about me again. I don’t want to. I want my boyfriend back. I don’t need him, but I want him.