Is it worth going backwards??

I’ve had the same friends since Middle School. I loved my girls nothing mattered more to me but some part of me has always felt like the emotions weren’t reciprocated. Maybe it’s my crave for their attention but I’ve often felt like they didn’t value me as much as I did. Last Thanksgiving me and my best friend/roommate hit a rough patch something small blew up now we don’t talk at all. Since then my other friends have kind of left me out as well. Maybe I’ve just been unknowingly icing everyone out because I think they’ll choose her over me but is it too much to ask for more effort on their part ? We are almost out of college and sometimes I just feel so alone. And I miss her, I miss them all. Should I try to reach out to her and maybe the rest will follow or is it even worth reconciling ? Maybe I’m being stubborn or maybe it was meant to be ???? I need advice.