i'm tired of feeling like the ugly friend. it's human to want attention, i'm not sure why it's almost forbidden for me to have that. one thing i do know is i will never compromise my happiness to cure me feeling lonely. my friends do it all the time, and that just isn't me. i'm getting older and relationships just sound fun and of course every one has someone they're boning. doesn't really seem fair to me, but i know "my time is coming" whatever. i don't want to hear it this time. i feel inadequate. unloved. unwanted. all of my friends get so much male attention and it's like they see me and it's like i'm chum compared to them. they try to make me feel better by saying i'm fine i'm hot whatever but am i really?