LAZY dude

So ladies , I’ve been having a really big problem with my boyfriend lately. Him and I have a son together who’s a little over a year old. Before the baby came he was excited and present. I went into labor and barely watched/was near me during delivering my son , my mom was my support system 100%. After the baby was born he went back to work when he was only 2 days old. And only came over once a week after that by choice. ( I know I sound like a kid but we are both in our 20’s but live separately) he didn’t show interest in having anything to do with his son until he was about 5 months old and I learned to be a single mother and do everything my own.

I went back to school and started hanging out with a new group of friends and got really close to a guy. My bf noticed I was losing interest in him and decided that this was the moment he was going to step up and try to work on our relationship and being a father but emotionally I was done. We broke up for a short time but he started talking about suicide and I caved so I know he wouldn’t do anything. Fast forward to now...... I’ve graduated college with high honors , applying at jobs and have been to multiple interviews, doing all the housework , taking care of the pets , dinners .... you name it.

He on the other hand has gained 60 pounds in a year, won’t go get a career , leaves messes everywhere , never helps with the baby and I feel like I have another kid to take care of. Today I went upstairs to give our son a bath and he just turned on his show downstairs. I gave the baby a bath and put him to bed ..... went into my room and noticed his clothes everywhere and my bed messed up, then I go downstairs to find him sleeping with dinner still out and dishes not done.

I’m overwhelmed and needed to vent. I feel like he doesn’t value anything I do and just ignores the things I ask him to do because if he doesn’t do them he knows I will. On top of it all .... I resent him a for making me look like and idiot. I’ve stayed with him through his cheating and lies .... even while I was pregnant and after our son. I give him chance after chance but can’t let go because I make myself believe I’m in love .... help me because my brain isn’t doing anything constructive!!!!