Ranting about life

But I’m just in the process of trying to get a new job, planning this vacation with my friends, helping with my neighbors wedding, family stuff, going thru a break up with even tho we still talk. Still trying to move on and go on dates. But me and my ex are not in a good place rn and both of us are just stressing out and we both can calm each other down and just be peaceful . So we’re planning a trip to the beach. He’s moving which makes me sad. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life rn bc I took a break from school bc my major change and idk what I want to do. I have to pay my bills. My period late but I’m not pregnant. My supervisor likes me but his crush is getting annoying. I don’t really talk to my friend that much he’s alway in another state working. My other friends I don’t tell my business. I don’t tell my family my business. I just turned 21 and feel like I’m stressing to much. Tryna get physical and mental prepare to live on my own. Trying to get benefits from my job. I just want to be stress free. I need to find a hobby. Or do something bc I’m just not happy. I miss my ex and he misses me. Only time will tell, if we get back together. When he moves I’m gonna miss him (he’s 25 btw). I need to do something I just don’t know yet or how to figure it out. My nieces and nephews are out of school so I don’t have to worry about picking and dropping them off at school and home. Then my mom is trying to have another neighborhood block party for 4th of July and just planning that is stressful especially when we start arguing. Maybe I just need some dick lol. Even tho I’m ranting about nothing because ppl have it worse like I was in the mall today and a little girl was in the food court with her family and was like I like you braids and I said thank then asked about my smoothie and me and her mom and her started talking between tables and then the little girl comes over and asked me for a hug and then my friend then she says something and the just say we’re homeless and I’m like wow I felt terrible. She was very nice and seemed like a smart girl then I start worrying about if she was going to school even tho it’s summer now. 7 hours later and I’m still thinking about her she walked off so happy with her teddy bear.