I don’t want to have a vaginal birth

With my son I was induced on my due date by my doctor because in her words I was “too petite and having the baby get any bigger would make it harder for me.” My appointment was at 5am, this obviously not a really great start for any type of natural birth. By 1pm, I was told I would not be able to get a epidural because some type of issue with my blood. All I got was some type of pain meds in my IV that wore off every 2 hours. At 8pm I was still at 3cm and I literally screamed at my doctor to give me a c-section. Well, she did. And it was the best choice I made. Now, I don’t know if i got it done only because I asked or because my water had been broken for hours and i was told my son had pooped inside me but either way I had a fast and pretty painless recovery. My doctors bedside manner was terrible but her skills are amazing. My stomach looks great and it doesn’t feel numb or in any pain at all. Now I’m pregnant with # 2 and my old OB retired. Im already preparing for another c-section but every is telling to push for a v-back. I don’t know what to do because I don’t know if I can have faith in this new doctor will leave me as perfectly painless as my other doctor. Deep deep down this is also a vain issue in that I don’t want to mess up down there. I don’t know what to decide but I really don’t want and scared of a vaginal delivery.