Not pregnant again

I really thought this was the month, but nope, Aunt Flo came to visit again.

I’m now the oldest cousin with no children. I’m 8 years older than all of my cousins. I was the first one to announce my pregnancy. At 14 weeks, 2 cousins announced after me. At 16 weeks we lost our baby. And our due date was last week. Now the other 2 are due soon at the end of the month.

And yesterday my youngest cousin announced she’s pregnant too. And all I want to do is just say why not me!? I just wish I could conceive again. I’m starting to give up hope. How do you cope with everyone pregnant around you!?