Depression while pregnant

Can we talk about how real depression can get when you are pregnant?

It's so damning because I should be happy right?

I got the baby I wanted. The baby is healthy. I'm healthy. Everything is great. And yet I feel alone and suicidal but I know anything I do I hurt the baby as well.

Dont get me wrong I have a great support system it's not like I'm not supported.

My fiance might be an ass at times but he does love me and care about my wellbeing. My job is understanding if I need to rest or take a day off. I've got a group of people planning me a shower.

So why. WHY. Do I want to die?.

Depression is real. Depression doesnt care who you are or where you are in life. We should be having an open discussion about it because it's going to keep taking the lives of our loved ones if we dont.

Update: it gets better💕