New mom

Hi, I just welcomed a beautiful baby boy into the world on June 3rd. I quickly felt connected with my baby and I never wanted to be away from him, but once he hit 2 weeks he seemed to start being more & more fussy and I feel like nothing will ease him anymore. I feel like I can’t do anything right and that he honestly just hates me. I always felt so guilty for leaving him with anyone but now that’s the only way I can get some rest during the day . I hate to say it but I’m starting to resent my husband too. When he is home all he wants to do is play video games or drink with my brother. I just want some attention too... I spend all day taking care of our son and waiting for him to get home, I just wish he’d wanna spend some time with me and I almost hate that he can relax and just drink the night away because I can’t do any of that. I love my son and I wouldn’t want to not be his mom.. im just so sad and tired and I feel so guilty for feeling this way.