6 BABIES

I had a picture perfect pregnancy, labor and delivery. But a week after we got home with my son he caught herpes simplex meningitis. It was a rough 2 months in the hospital and he now suffers from CP. We’re doing lots of therapy and work with him daily. I feel like I missed out on so much with him when he was so little that it makes me want to have a huge family just to make up for it so I can actually have those memories to make that I didn’t get to do with him. I feel selfish and terrible, but in the other hand I’ve always wanted a large family for my kids to grow and play with as we’re not close with any of my family, but my husbands family is semi close and involved with us. Is it reasonable to want more kids already? (My son is 8 months old, but I wouldn’t dare to try to have another for a good 8 more months lol)