1st One 😩😒

I finally Came To Peace With My Miscarriage Or Well Atleast I’m At The State In Mind Where I Can Finally Talk about It Without A Problem For So Long I Been Asking Myself & God Why Me Why Would you Take Away Something so special just like that This Was My first Miscarriage & Hopefully My Last I Was On B/C For Only 2yrs & It Really Messed Me Up Because of The Hormones I Was Diagnosed W / Borderline PCOS Basically It would Be Hard for Me To Have A Child So Founding Out I was pregnant I was shocked and overwhelmed at first but then SUPER EXCITED Now usually I was use to Having Irregular Periods But This Time It Felt Different I don’t Smoke nor Drink So I made A appointment & Went To The Doctor On May 29 & was told I was a few weeks Early & To schedule a appointment for a ultrasound in 3wks The whole 3wks was fine but a Few Days Before My Appointment I started bleeding I called my dr was told maybe it was implantation Bleeding but I wasn’t in any pain really so they just told me to come in tomorrow I later found out when I got to my drs appointment that I had Miscarriaged IT REALLY BROKE ME I FELT SO DISAPPOINTED WITHIN MYSELF ,ANGRY WITH MYSELF LIKE I HAD DID SOMETHING WRONG ANGRY WITH MY BF LIKE MAYBE IF I WOULD HAVE WENT AND KNOWN SOONER I COULD HAVE DID SOMETHING DIFFERENT BUT NOW I JUST KNOW IT WASNT MY TIME AND WHEN THE TIME COMES ILL BE READY FOR MY RAINBOW BABY 🥰🌈👶🏽