Devastated

Just had our 3rd failed IUI and they said if the next one doesn’t work we have to have a consultation for IVF since the chances of IUI go way Down after the 3 or 4th. I just feel so defeated. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through. I want to be a mom so badly. I don’t want to go to work, I don’t want to leave the house, and I especially don’t want to look at other babies. It makes me so sad that I don’t have my own. And paying for IVF is going to be such a struggle and it’s not even guaranteed 😥😥