If anyone wants to give me a free therapy session

Please do cause I really need it lol. I travel too often to see a therapist regularly and online therapy isn’t covered by insurance and I definitely can’t afford $260 a month with better help.

My problem is is that I was 9 years old when my dad died suddenly. This was 11 years ago and I still have an incredibly hard time opening up about it. Even just thinking about it makes me tear up still. Some of my closest friends that I made after he passed don’t even know that he passed because I just can hardly share that information. It kills me you guys. I’m constantly in a state of sadness and feel like I’m just drowning in grief. It’s been way too long I should be healed by now :(