Deployment

My husband has been deployed for a month now, still has a lot more time to go before he gets home. We were trying to conceive our first child while he was still here but nothing came of it. I got my period while he was gone and this is the first time I have ever cried about my period coming because, for me, there isn’t a “we’ll try again next month.” I will not be able to conceive a baby this year and that’s final. And he’s gone. I have no emotional support, I’m far from my family and friends and I just feel so alone right now. And like an utter failure. I don’t post this for sympathy or really for any other reason than to just speak the words and hope that they no longer reside within me. I know none of this is my fault or anyone’s fault really. But knowing that doesn’t bring my husband home, or give me a miracle in my belly. I just needed an outlet.