I somehow got thru my PPD never sought help because my husband kept telling me I was ok and once I get more sleep I’ll be betters fast forward now I have a toddler and I’m pregnant with our 2nd. Halfway thru the pregnancy and we still fight over the same issues. I’ve just been bawl crying for an hour and just don’t know where wlse to put this into the universe.

Basically got into a huge fight with my husband tonight. I’ve been so sick this pregnancy and today my toddler was sick. On /off fever since yesterday so I was just spent by the time my husband got home. He’s a great provoder and does help around the house. He came home and ate the pizza he picked up and was on his computer for a football draft. I made my toddler some soup and started feeding him and at 7 I was like you’re done can you plz switch me so I can eat to—‘d thats when thr fight started. Basically according to him I don’t acknowledge how great he is and that he does rush home to help and give me a break and it’s not a big deal if he does a draft after 6 years. I agree but I am starving and tired and need to eat dinnner too and I’m pregnant let me eat !

I know he does a lot but so do i. I just wish he would acknowledge that and then when I was hangry he was like let’s stop talking but then continued - asked why I was acting like such a B and how I’m so less is missing and I was like I don’t feel good and he’s like you never feel good and you’re always tired and no fun you never want to do anything.

We lived in this state because he wanted his mom to be close by and eventually take care of our kids well now we have them and shes the real B - always plays games when we need help even after we beg her and is so unreliable. I just am so annoyed and I know I’m not perfect and he’s not either but I don’t know how we both can not be so hurtful and what hurts me more is that he’s ok with his pregnant wife not eating dinner til late or bawl crying for an hour after spending over an hour putting the sick toddler to bed 😞and basically being kicked in the belly and clawed and cried at for that hour. Didn’t say thanks or sorry 😐 it’s like it’s ok I’m hormonal let me cry it out. I just wish he was more sensitive and considerate to my feelings too. I didn’t say nice things tonight either but I didn’t call him names

I’ve suggested couples therapy but he thinks I just need to change as a person. I think deep down he’s upset that I chose to work part time and not still work full time and make more money for the family 😥but my parents were not around much and were working so much I always said I would rather have less nice things and be Abel to spend time with. My kids if I have kids.

I don’t know how to fix us☹️I’m just tired and so spent and feel horrible that my toddler is exposed to parents like us who are broken