No birthday for me

I talked my boyfriend of 5 years out of coming with me to my aunt and uncles house Sunday for a bbq, and to my grandparents house Saturday for my birthday. He has to drive an hour to work every day 10-7pm, so I texted him saying he didn’t have to come if he didn’t want to so he could rest. I guess you know how I feel, but I also did it to myself, so I can’t really blame anyone for how I’m feeling...