Im so fucking pissed and overwhelmed with literally everything that i feel like /look shit .1st my birth was a shitty surgery was a failed meds,doctors didn't do shit for me to help me out.2nd my baby girl needs tube in her ears and cleft palate surgery (something that we didnt know ),let's just say i feel disconnected with her /bonding???can't breastfeed her (doesn't know how because her cleft palate)3rd plus i have postpartum depression its hitting me bad.4th it feels like its all on me literally everything the fucking bills we are over the f bills they're all due and expected to over pay water ,electricity, cable, cell,insurance. 5th it seems that my husband acts like asshole when it comes to looking after her ,i wished he would say "honey im here let me help you",no he's acting like a fucking asshole to me .6th my kid's speech therapy supervisor did a eval on her knowing my kid she needs no more help so she discharged her ,didnt tell me her score on her eval til wk later ,like wtf takes long to tell me plus slacked on this ,it's her job to inform the parents and expects me to be happy about it.in total i feel like fucking failure to my kids and self because my baby was born with birth defects ,i took care of myself during the whole pregnancy, everything around me uggh ,dude im fucking drowning here and this so called husband isnt saying honey im here nope .so i fucked up right now let my emotions show and can't stop .plus my daughter has breathing issues too/cleft palate that im always with her (haven't slept a 5 hour only 2 hrs only that im fucking pissed at my self