i think i’m asexual ?

i’m not entirely sure and i’m not really the type to think this stuff is real (the 300 sexual orientations blah blah) but the more i think about it i just really think i could be asexual? i mean i’m attracted to men but i don’t get horny? like ever? i read on here how people get horny randomly or whatever and i’ve just never felt that?

i was sexually assaulted at 15 and it was my first encounter so maybe it’s just leftover trauma? i literally have no idea. i’ve never been the type to go out and have sex w whoever and it’s really hard bc i’m almost 19 and id like to date someone but they all want to have sex and i just don’t wanna do that to myself anymore.

sex is a really weird experience for me. i don’t necessarily enjoy it and i can preform i suppose but it’s nothing special or exciting to me. i don’t know i’m in a damn crisis LMFAOi