Sister rant

I am 19 and my sister is 20. I want to say that we have both been good kids. She has always been kind of a suck up though and expects to waited hand and foot. I’ve always been the type to do things for myself.

Around high school she was the preppy sister and I was what people called “mean”. Not that I was actually mean. I have a resting bitch face, so naturally people kind of avoided talking to me and would make assumptions of who I was. Luckily I had some friends who were “brave” enough to talk to me. My sister had tons of friends and plenty of guys on her tail. Being a cheerleader helped that.

Anyways to the point. In high school is when I started going “downhill”. My home life wasn’t what I called healthy. My dad was an asshole (we have a much better relationship now thankfully but back then it was awful) , my sister was the favorite child, and I was a disappointment. My sister was always better in school even though she was a total ditz in regular life. And I was the opposite. I wasn’t bad in school. Just never as good as her. I was always told that I need to do better even though I was doing the best I could and it really played with my head.

My sister and I never really had a good relationship. We were total opposites. She was a suck up and I wasn’t. Because I never sucked up to my parents , I was deemed as a problem child. Obviously there was a disconnect between me and my family from that so I started hanging out away from home a lot more often. Kicker was , my sister could stay out til sunrise and they wouldn’t bat an eye. If I stayed it til 11 , they’d blow my phone up. The double standard was real in my household. If she got a bad grade , it’s because she’s stressed and needs to relax. If I got a bad grade , then I wasn’t trying hard enough. If she wants new clothes, she gets them. If I want new clothes, then too bad because I already have clothes even though I haven’t gotten new tennis shoes since freshman year of high school. If the dog needs to be walked, then I have to do it because she doesn’t want to. If the car needs to be moved, then I have to do it because she won’t get out of bed. I can’t even sit in the front seat because she’ll complain and pout. This girl doesn’t even know how to wash clothes or pump gas. I have to wash her clothes. If we need gas, then I have to show her how to do it every single time. Not to mention that she refuses to pay for gas even though she drives the car more than anyone else. Her excuse is that she has to go to school. Well me too and I still pay for gas. She chose to work thirty minutes away so its not me who uses the gas. I only use that car 2 times a week and that’s to drive us to school and back.

I was telling her that I’m going to start going to the gym Tuesday’s and Thursday’s and she said “yea I’d like to see that” in one of the condescending tones. She said “I haven’t seen you go to the gym in a long time”. Well excuse me! I’ve been working for years now to pay for my own stuff while you get mommy and daddy to pay for everything you have. So don’t talk to me about having time to do things while you didn’t get a job until a few months ago that pays min wage.

All my friends know how she is but she likes to show a facade to others. She tells her friends that I’m a snitch because I told my mom that she didn’t come home until the next day because my sister wasn’t answering her phone and I thought something happened. So her friends thought I was awful. Meanwhile she can’t hold a secret for nothing. She told my grandfather that I wasn’t a Virgin amongst other things.

I just had to let this out before I explode.