relationship issues!

i’ve been with my current boyfriend & father of my child for a year & 6 months. everything was great in the beginning, i was so happy. he was so great & sweet. after having a baby things just have spiraled down. he sure has shown his true colors & i just don’t know what i want anymore. a part of me tells me i so deserve better but another part of me says that i still love him & were just going through a rough patch right now. i guess my question is does it ever get easier lol?? i’m just lost & confused & caught up in my feelings i just can’t seem to figure out what i want.