‼️ UNEXPECTED PREGNANCY ‼️

* i literally ask no one to judge, because this was unexpected *

So this goes back in april of this year. my boyfriend and i starting ttc in that month. No luck. May comes, and my friend suggested me to get a uterus massage . It's a myth of mexicans that when your uterus is not where it's suppose to be, the person massaging you will know how to put it back. So apparently my uterus was just chilling on my right side 😅. i had no idea of knowing this. She moved my uterus back to normal. We tried that month, still no luck.

June comes at this point i'm sad. i still received my period. Bad things started popping up in my head like " What if i cant have kids." ( in a previous relationship i was force to take plan b almost every other day.) "what if he leaves me because i haven't gotten pregnant." etc.. I was healthy, kept track of my ovulation days, my periods were normal. All me and My boyfriend do is smoke weed because we're both medicated patients.

July comes, no luck.. My boyfriend knew something was wrong with me. He knew that it was upsetting me. He knew i was at the edge of just falling into depression. Our close friends announced they were expecting. And then other couple more friends announced theirs. My 21st Birthday was in august and he told me one day, "babe let's forget about all this, your birthday is coming up next month let's not stress about us not being able to have a kid god probably has something else planned for us." I cried so much knowing he understood me, each day passed and he helped me forget about us ttc. i was feeling like myself again.

August comes, my boyfriend did the most for me 😭, he would leave notes in my makeup area, he would tell me everyday how much he loves me and appreciates me, he would take me out every other day when he can to the park to have a picnic , or we would just walk around the neighborhood just so i won't be in my room sad. It's August 17 day of my birthday, it was my 21st of course i wanted to go all out you turn 21 once right !? My close friends came over and my family to my apartment (my boyfriend threw me a small gathering) at this point it's like 11:30 pm i don't know how many shots i have taken, dont know how many mixed drinks i had, but this is where it gets crazy one of my gay friends brought an acid tab. i took it and it was the craziest trip but cool experience that i ever had. The trees moved like if they were reefs or corals from the ocean, we watched alice in wonderland through the looking glass to have the trip last longer, then i started to hallucinate . i started seeing shadow figures and it stressed me out so bad i had to put myself to sleep(acid tabs are known to keep you up all night if taken at night.)

It's August 25, the day i was suppose to get my period. Nothing. I didn't think much that oh go buy a test. At this Point it's August 30 i had no signs of my period and i thought i wasn't going to get it because of how much i stressed out after seeing the shadows on my trip. Later that night we went to a friends house because of a family gathering. My friend told me "dude you look different are you pregnant?" and i'm thinking to myself "am i pregnant?" and i told her no i'm not. she asked if i was on my period i said no. She immediately took me to her restroom and told me to take the test. I didn't want to, because i was tired of just seeing one line, or negative.

She walks out the restroom, i put the test in my bra and walked out and she asks "so what is it." i told her "negative" she gave me a hug and told me "It's okay it'll happen one day." i thought to myself, when is that one day gonna be.

I get home, and i talked myself into taking the test. I grab a plastic cup and pee in it. I took out the clear blue test and i just couldn't . i started crying asking god to forgive if i was pregnant. for what i did on my birthday. not even 10 seconds of the test being in my pee it reads PREGNANT. i'm crying so much on my bathroom door. I felt so much guilt on what i did on my birthday with the acid tab drinking, smoking weed.

I come out and go to the room and waited for my bf to get home ( he went to jack in the box for our late night snack) . Y'all i was SO SCARED TO TELL MY BOYFRIEND 😂😂😂🤦🏻‍♀️. He walked into our room and i'm just sitting all scared like with that nervous smile on my face 🥴 . He asks are you okay what's wrong. and i just kept saying uhh nothing and i would giggle. lmaoo so i eventually told him !! he started crying so much he was so happy to know he was finally gonna be a dad !!

next day it's september 1st , i take another two test sure enough came up positive. September 2nd went to a clinic to confirm and it was positive .

I'm 5 weeks and 4 days right now, my expected due date is April 30th 💗. haven't had a ultrasound yet of course but i will soon.

I learned to just not stress on something that will happen at its own timing. If it'll happen it'll happen. God will answer your prayers soon i promise you ❣️🤞🏻🙏🏻.