Yesterday evening I was trying to show my husband how to remove all the trashed pictures out of his phone because he takes an insane amount of pictures for work... but when I clicked to view his gallery I seen three pictures of naked women... I clicked on the picture of the woman's vagina and asked what is this... he lied and said it's an ugly vag he found online and sent it to his buddy for shits and giggles. (His buddies really do send crude humor like that, but this was not a meme).... anyway.... I happened to really look at the whole picture and in the bottom left hand corner was a little picture of his dick and his hand. Which also showed his wedding band. He continued to try and lie and say it wasnt him... but I could clearly see our walls and his chair in the background... I got so sick to my stomach, I just told him to shut the fuck up... I'm not stupid... plus the picture with the girls boobs in it, had his actual face in the bottom picture. It was a fucking app!! Like a porn site but in a fucking app. He was actually chatting with other women to beat off.

Now look idgaf if he watches porn to beat off. I watch porn. Shit WE watch porn together to spice things up a lil.... but to download an app and interact with somebody... that's sexting. That's a whole different level. You dont actually talk to the girls in the videos you watch on pornhub DH!

It gets better....

He then tried to flip it! He said he found an app like it in my previous app history thing WHICH IS ANOTHER FUCKING LIE!!!! I have NEVER had anything even fucking close to that on my phone EVER!!!

The only thing I have ever used that was somewhat similar was chat roulette. And that was years before we ever even got married... so that has me pissed and confused... like how are you going to try to pin this on me. Why cant you just take responsibility for your own fuxking actions....

Anyway then when we got to the market, he said "if it makes you feel any better, those girls dont even live here... they're all from Australia"

WHY THE FUCK WOULD THAT MAKE ME FEEL BETTER?!?!?!

Yall idk.. I'm so upset. And he cheated on me before. Actually had sex with somebody else. His bestfriend's (at the time/ they dont speak anymore) girlfriend. Said she seduced him.. yadda yadda.

I forgave him. We have both made mistakes, none of mine were THAT serious. I never fucked any other guy. Well that all happened in our apartment. On our couch/futon...

Fast forward. I was literally thinking about leaving because that hurt so bad and I didnt know if I could ever trust him again... so I prayed on it. And a week later I found out I was pregnant. I went full term with our baby who is turning 3.

So I stayed. And we got married (he asked me after he asked my father)

And I love him. I truly do. Which is why I said yes.

So everything has honestly been great we have ups and downs like every other couple but it's always some stupid stuff and we get over it. Weve been together for 7 years, married for almost 3...

We've been trying for baby number 2 for a year now. We've had 3 miscarriages, 1 required a d&c. And after trying we dont really have sex inside the two week window after ovulation because that has caused one of the miscarriages... so if I am pregnant my ob would tell us not to have sex until the 12 week mark anyway...

But that's no excuse for him doing that.... :/

If you have read to this point, thank you truly. I ranted a lot in here.. I'm just hurt and dont know what to do... I want to talk to him about why he would lie to me when I clearly seen everything. He doesnt usually lie when he gets caught doing something. He just owns up to it. Maybe he was trying to save my feelings get hurt or he didnt want me to be disappointed in him. Maybe he was scared that I might leave him... idk. I really just dont know.

But I asked him last night if he has fucked anybody else and he said no, and I kinda believe him. But how am I supposed to fully believe him when he lied so hard and so convincingly about those pictures....? 😭😭😭💔