Herpes....

I keep posting about this topic for the past few days. But I went and finally got tested, I’m still waiting for the results... but my Dr. said it’s most likely herpes.

I told him my background. I told him how I’ve only been with one person the past 3 years. I’ve never had an outbreak before, so this is my 1st time. So he’s testing my blood to see if a certain cell has been in there for some time because it’s takes time to develop that certain cell after infection or if that comes out completely negative, and the other one comes out high, it means that I got newly infected within the past 6 months. But the only person I have been with for the past 3 years are him. I feel completely sick with myself. My partner has no symptoms but doctor said they can pass it without even knowing that they have herpes. It can come off as a little cold and he can be shedding without knowing it. My partner & I talked, and we’re gonna still be together regardless but I’m just depressed about this overall. I would have never thought it would have been me💔🥺

I just don’t have anybody to talk to about this because I’m not trusting of anybody....

I just know that I didn’t have this on my own before him cause I would’ve had an outbreak while I was pregnant with my daughter and I never had any of that. And I just have the weakest immune system as well.