Just need to vent

I don’t really have anyone to talk to so I want to vent I’m pregnant and a single mother my family live 5 hours away from me and because of family court I cannot take my kids out of the state to move out I’m literally alone my kids dad treats me like shit disrespectful towards me calls me names talk bad about me he also lives with me doesn’t pay any bills the only reason why I allowed him to live with me is because I don’t have a car to be going around places with kids and I have no one else but him so he knows I have no one I’m depressed please don’t judge me I just don’t know what to do with my life I’m tired of living this way sometimes I get really suicidel I extremely hate my life.