Husband won’t let me do a walk of remembrance for our dead son lost at 22 weeks

OK people please tell me if I’m wrong for being upset for this.

So today my therapist told me about a walk of remembrance its for all the families out there that lost a baby during pregnancy or even after pregnancy. It’s a time for us to come together in this horrible time and support one another be there for one another and walk to honor our precious babies that are no longer with us. I called my husband and told him about it, I was so moved by this walk that it had me choking up when I told him about it and when I did tell him all he said was no you’re not doing that we’re not going there we remember him just fine every day and I’m not going to the area I don’t like the area you don’t need to do no walk.

I was heartbroken this walk was important to me I still to this day blame myself for the death of my son and I’ll go into detail about what happen with him underneath this but it wasn’t even the fact that he said no it was also the fact that he said it the way he said it like yeah I no we’re not doing that this is so stupid type of attitude. Now first off I wanna get one thing clear my husband is not controlling not abusive he’s a good man. So Please don’t comment and be like “leave his ass” because I love him I truly do I just want to know am I in the wrong for being upset about this and it’s not that it upsets him to much to do the walk he just doesn’t feel like doing it and if he’s not gonna do it he doesn’t want me to do it because I don’t drive well in bigger cities just please give me your feedback And like I said I’m gonna post below this what happen with him and why I blame myself

We’ve been trying to conceive a baby number two for a year and a half now we lost 4 babies in a row in early pregnancy between 5-8 weeks due to low levels of progesterone. So anyways I got pregnant again Was put on progesterone straight away and it worked we were pregnant with a boy Colton James Teague he was totally healthy 100% no problems he was beautiful in every single way he was perfect and he was ours. But being healthy wasn’t enough, you see early on in the pregnancy with Colton I bled from 5-13 weeks I was horrified the entire time that I was losing another baby I just kept telling him come on baby boy you got this keep fighting please just keep fighting don’t give up. But in the end it didn’t matter how hard he fought to hold on because it was my fault he died My bodies fault him I had an incompetent cervix and even with all the bed rest in the world it still opened up and we lost him I gave birth to him at 22 weeks my water had broke the night before I could feel him kicking and hitting like crazy as if he was struggling because there is no more water and The next morning when I started to give birth to him he was breach so his body came out first and the doctor saw the umbilical cord and told me it was white and that he probably died in the night he died in my Belly so he was stillborn but he was perfect I blame myself to this day for his death because he was perfect but my body failed him