please no hateful comments

i’m already mad at myself enough .. my bf and I use condoms on top of my birth control pill (which I take perfectly and have for 9 years) but last night we ran out of condoms and decided to go without .. I am so mad at myself for allowing it to happen because I suffer from severe anxiety .. my last active pill is today and my withdrawal bleed is supposed to come tues or weds. do y’all think i’m okay? i’m so mad at myself 😞🤦🏽‍♀️ (he pulled out but I know that’s not effective that’s why i’m so concerned)