New relationship no sex 🥴

I’m in my first real relationship I’m 21 we are together just over 2 months we haven’t had sex yet. I’ve only had sex once (with a different guy) it was just over a year ago. My first experience with sex was horrible I was in so much pain there was so much blood everywhere i was covered and so was he. It wasn’t a great time. This experience has messed me up it is now affecting me taken my relationship to the next level. I fear I’m gonna bleed loads again (I’m aware it’s gonna hurt due to me only having sex once). My boyfriend knows I’ve had only one sexual partner but he does think I had sex multiple times with this person I don’t know why I lied to my boyfriend I guess I was just embarrassed having very little sexual experience. I am aware my boyfriend has had loads of sexual partners as this is something we spoked about. I’m just wondering can anyone give me advice how to get over my fear. Should I make my boyfriend aware there is a chance im gonna bleed should I tell him To take it easy for the first few times. I really wanna have sex with him but I’m stopping myself everytime any advice would be great thanks 😊