Please Help.

Not sure what to do. My RE told me to order my meds for a second egg retrieval. So I did. I have almost 8k worth of meds. Now the back story. 1st retrieval results in 2 surviving embryos. We do genetic testing as I was 36 at the time and my husband 39. The test came back saying they will never survive. They had chromosmal translocation on 6 and 11. My RE was on vacation so her partner called with the news. He recommends Karyotype DNA testing on both of us. He was convinced since we had one miscarriage and now 2 embryos that will die.... that it was the DNA in one of us. (I knew when he said that it would come back that my chromosomes/DNA would be the problem). When my RE gets back and hears what he told us she convinces us that he is wrong and 2 embryos is not enough to make that conclusion. She ordered the meds and told me prepare for retrieval (I got super sick the first time, was not looking forward to it again), but I demand the bloodwork so she says insurance will never approve it until I have 3 miscarriages, but her office would give me all the info so I can call and ask my insurance to do the bloodwork. My thought is she was thinking IF the insurance told me NO that I would drop it and do another retrieval... but when I explained that I had suffered 1 miscarriage and that if we implant those embryos I will miscarry again, they said they would approve the testing on my husband and myself. So the 8k worth of meds show up ...... then 2 weeks later the bloodwork comes in. ITS ME. I have 2 translocations the first on chromosomes 1 and 3 and the second on chromosomes 6 and 11. The DNA specialist said I will never have a child using my own eggs, because the chances of finding an embryo without the translocation, because I have 2 of them and the embryos only receive the bad DNA and none of my good to balance it out.... it is impossible. On top of all this I have been getting sicker since the egg retrieval. All the hormones caused swelling on my brain and I have to deal with that. SO MY QUESTION IS... would it be wrong or bitchy of me to make my doctor help me find someone to buy the medication from me??