Went to my ob

So went to my ob today. I expected them to say my urine test came back negative as I’m only 12 DPO and even I was getting vvfl. Plus they don’t really look too hard at your dr. At least not mine. But they said blood results should be back Monday. I’m so scared. I want a baby so bad and we’ve been on and off trying for a year now. Also coming up on a year since we lost our angel baby. I really just hate it because my lines seem to be getting lighter now. Today was disappointing for me. I know I’m still super early but I feel like I should prepare for bad news so I can’t be disappointed. 🥺 looking on this app makes me more sad because other women are getting such strong lines at 12 DPO it seems like.