So I am a recovering drug addict. I got clean for my kids. I disconnected myself from the people who I did drugs with and basically stayed to myself.

I have been clean for almost 2 years come Jan.

Tonight my BD came home cracking jokes about Coke. That’s what my choice of drug was. Kept saying things like “ya wanna do some coke?” And such thing like that. At first I thought it was a joke. Clearly it wasn’t because I caught him with a razor blade cuttin up some type of white powder. First time I’ve ever seen him do something like this. I’m not sure if it was coke or not. I got rid of it though and he got mad.

What tf do I do? Clearly the right answer is to leave but I have no where to go. Believe me when I tell you I’ve tried shelters and they are all booked. I don’t have any friends or family, literally. So what do I do?? I don’t want to go back to my old self. I like the new me. The sober me.