Before and after baby body pictures ,I hate how my body looks🤦🏽‍♀️😫 i need postpartum advice

Im 1 month and 18 days postpartum I'm trying to get my confidence back but i hate my current body I gain 65 pounds throughout my pregnancy I dont see my self geting back to 110 And I'm trying to accept that, I'm cover in stress marks my thighs touch and I have random darkness my boob are Huge and uneven one of my nipples is inverted and the other one is bigger I do exclusively breastfeed and plan on doing that for as long as I can I'm so happy to be a mother and I love my baby girl so so much shes my world but Every time I catch a glimpse of myself I wanna cry, showers are the worst I did have an emergency c-section and I still havent got my doctors okay to workout This is post to be the happiest time in my life and it is until I see myself I used to be very confident

I feel selfish for wanting To feel better about myself and care about looks when I should just be focused on my babygirl and the happiness she brings me .Any other mother out there feeling like this or went through this How did you get your confidence back And accept your new/current body and if anybody kno how to get rid of stress marks and darkness.