I am a cheater.

My husband just went on day shift after working night shift for 10 years this past week and this allows him to be at home with me and the kids at night now. So I had a rough last night at work and I wasn’t feeling well and I came home help cooked dinner, got the kids ready for bed and after eating dinner with him ; I went to bed exhausted. He wanted to have sex and I didn’t want to because I knew I couldn’t deliver cause of how exhausted I was and he kept asking me to have sex with him and saying I never have sex with him (which is a LIE) just haven’t have sex as much cause we was in a brink of divorce a couple months ago and things have been rocky so we haven’t had much sex and plus he was still night shift so we didn’t see each other til the weekends sometimes so that’s the only time we would have sex until he just changed over to day shift this week. So anyway... I fell asleep immediately and he tapped me hard and rudely say you are snoring too loud turn over . So I turned over and went back to sleep and then after falling back in deep sleep he taps me again and wake me up saying “are you cheating on me” and you are cheating on me sleeping with guys in my bed while I’m not at home and fuck you and saying when I catch you I’m going to kill you bitch if I find out etc. and I’m like what are you talking about just cause you didn’t get your way and we didn’t have sex you have to be disrespectful. And I went back to sleep and he left saying fuck you . You cheating ass etc calling me names and so I wake this morning angry cause I work my ass off and do everything for this family and this the thanks I get. I really want a divorce cause I’ve been trying for years to work this out but this is my last straw and I’m at my wits end.