What should I do ?

My husband wants s divorce . We live separately due to the military. But Christmas is coming up should I bring my 8 month old to see him and spend Christmas where he is located even though it’s gonna be emotionally draining for me . He is pretty mean to me and ignores my presence. I went for thanksgiving and it was bad . I want our child to have both of us on holidays but I’m always the one that ends with egg on my face . Please should I stay and be with my family and enjoy Christmas or do Christmas with him for the sake of our child .

SN : the ticket is already bought and paid for . I do want our family to work but he has made it clear he is done . I don’t know how to let go and just focus on myself... pretty emotional and hard .