kicked out because of my moms boyfriend

growing up , i had a step father that was very abusive & my mother usually disregarded that . i got pregnancy early 2017 & had my son oct . 2017. my moms husband who was my stepfather at the time left because of an argument that happened between us. i’ve tried rekindling my relationship with my real father even after knowing he never wanted me but i still tried over and over again & every time to my “surprise” he never wanted the relationship . i’m saying all of this to tell everyone that i never had a positive father figure in my life . but my mother is easily controlled by men . she put my step father before me & now she has a new boyfriend that she does the same thing with . i’m a CNA & i take care of my mother when she needs it being that she’s sick & needs medical care ever so often . when i was 8 months pregnant i slept in a hospital chair for 2 nights because i didn’t want to leave her . i’ve done everything to help & nurture my mother . so now to how i got kicked out . my mother’s boyfriend hit my son . i left my house to go to my child’s fathers house because i was upset about the hitting bc it was very loud & my son started screaming crying . i told my child’s father & he was very upset so we decided to call my mother ( also i’ve told my mother multiple times already that i wasn’t okay with her bf hitting my son for ANY REASON at all ) as soon as we got in the phone with her we said exactly “ we are u comfortable with your boyfriend hitting our son “ she spazzed & long story short she said that if in uncomfortable with that then i need to find some place for me & my son to live . This is not the first time my mother has tried to kick me out over a man but this time i feel like my concerns for my child should have been way more important to her than some man that can’t control his anger because he beats the dogs we have as well with anything he can find . this man is cruel & i see everything i’ve seen with my step father happening with him & i am very triggered . i told my mother that as well and she made fun of me for crying on the phone r about being abused for 13 years under her supervision & her not saying anything about it & im started to see the same pattern with my son . i’m currently staying with my child’s father right now & were looking for a new place but i cried so hard hearing my mother neglect me once again . throw me out & disregard my feelings once again , i used to cut myself due to the abuse i endured growing up & when she found out she called me stupid & whooped me for it . i never disrespect my mother even when she told me i was kicked out i just said okay & waited for her to hang up because i would never hang up on her. no matter what she does i always respect her & her wishes . my heart hurts for myself because i’ve never had real parent love. my family always favored my brother because he had a birth defect & they thought they were going to get money from him if they were good to him but forgot that i was around & could see the favoritism . my brother even left home because of my mother and her boyfriend. i’m trying to be a good mother for my son but i don’t know how honestly . maybe i’m overreacting or maybe it was my fault because no matter what she does i take the blame for the outcome of the situation & im always left thinking maybe i was the one in the wrong . i’m simply just asking for prayers because my prayers aren’t working right now & im losing faith in myself and in god ! it’s a lot more that has happened but i don’t want to make this too long