Heartbroken

So today my husband of a year and 5 months decided to pull a knife on me and threaten me several time with it. I reported it and have a restraining order. I put 3 whole years of love and devotion in to this man just to be done this way. I put in overtime hours when I was pregnant and he couldn't work because of a broken ankle. So we could pay bills. He won't ket me call the police when I feel threatened. He won't back up and give me space to calm down when I'm emotional because he is yelling at me and acting aggressive. I put so much love into him just to have him accuse me falsely of cheating.

I never wanted to be a single mother but here I am. The baby is safe at a family members.

I want to make up but I know this is the best. Because what if next time he kills me?

Why me? Why this? I was literally minding my own business when he just exploded. I'm hurting so much.

Lord help me!

I go to court in 13 days.

My head is pounding.