Never going back

I will not be going back around my husband family, they all called me stuck up and my nose in the air just for not talking as much I have a 3 year old so I stayed outside because she wanted to play on the swing set plus there was way to many people in the house an I’m not really a social person. Im tired of people saying I act stuck up especially when people never really know what I’m going through , my grandpa has cancer, this was supposed to be my baby first Christmas but didn’t make it , I’m depressed about everything thats going on between me and my mom. I just don’t understand it , its my personality I don’t talk much when I’m around a lot of people . I just wish people would stop it